My child gets Me...

Kaydence and I have an awesome relationship! I saw last night just how well my daughter...gets me. Well it had been a rough night making Halloween costumes, babysitting, etc. And not to mention Kaydence was not at all interested in taking a nap. So needless to say she was exhausted and so was I. So when we finally made it home I was just ready for her to go on to bed and for me to get some house work done and go on to bed myself. But that did not happen! Kaydence was wide awake when we got home and my patience was wearing thin...I was just getting so irritated. I finally put Kaydence in the bed with me (which I'm trying not to do) and we laid there and snuggled and she looked into my eyes with her big blue eyes and softly put her little hand on my cheek and stroked my face! It was the sweetest gesture from such a sweet child. It may sound corney, but she made everything better with that little stroke! She soon turned over and fell asleep in my arms. And though I do not want her to get used to sleeping with me, I love for her to fall asleep with me and for us to have our cuddle times! I need those and so does she!

So this is, and has already been a long week of working and preparation for Halloween. Hopefully when this week is over I can get Kaydence back to a normal routine!! These late nights are killing us! She is doing well though...she adapts to change well, which is very much welcome and appreciated in this house hold considering our lives are constantly changing!

So today I am starting all over!!! I feel like this blog will be a nice outlet for me during the next 5 months and hopefully there after. I thought that it was pointless to write this blog once we moved home because we were home and now everyone could keep up with us face to face. But I've realized over the past two months that I need an outlet. This deployment is really getting to me and is a lot tougher than I thought it would be. I'm sure that there are other women out there that feel the same as I do.

Okay so over the past two months:
I have started working, and I thought that it would be horrible to be away from Kaydence considering I've stayed home with her for the past 11 months, but it turned out to be a nice and needed break for the both of us. Kaydence has gotten to get closer to other members of the family and mommy has been able to get out of the house for some grown up time and not to mention make some extra money, which is always a good thing.

I have gotten to talk to Miles a whole lot more than I ever thought would be possible, which is amazing. I love him so much and just hearing is voice or even getting a message on facebook makes my day so much better! He is doing well and just trying to get through the next 5 months. I can't wait for him to get home! We are missing him so much. One of my biggest fears was that Kaydence wouldn't know who Miles was when he got home, but I really don't have that fear anymore. Miles made here a video before he left and Kaydence watches it almost every day and she will even kiss the t.v. screen and say dada. Her eyes just light up whenever I turn the video on; its wonderful to me to see her so happy to see her daddy!

I have also been feeling the effects of being the only parent! I have a new found respect for single mothers...because it is really hard and just tiring. I also have a new respect for Miles, not that I didn't respect him before, but now I realize just how much he did. I would always complain that he didn't do enough or how I wanted him to do more, but now I realize that he did so much! Sometimes you don't truly apperciate someone or something until its gone!

So today is my birthday and I am so excited to celebrate with my family and friends, but it is really hard to go through today without Miles! Now I did get to talk to him via facebook (thank goodness for modern technology) so that just made my day that much better!!! But now I am going to enjoy a nice dinner with my family and friends!