living with the littles

So today I am starting all over!!! I feel like this blog will be a nice outlet for me during the next 5 months and hopefully there after. I thought that it was pointless to write this blog once we moved home because we were home and now everyone could keep up with us face to face. But I've realized over the past two months that I need an outlet. This deployment is really getting to me and is a lot tougher than I thought it would be. I'm sure that there are other women out there that feel the same as I do.

Okay so over the past two months:
I have started working, and I thought that it would be horrible to be away from Kaydence considering I've stayed home with her for the past 11 months, but it turned out to be a nice and needed break for the both of us. Kaydence has gotten to get closer to other members of the family and mommy has been able to get out of the house for some grown up time and not to mention make some extra money, which is always a good thing.

I have gotten to talk to Miles a whole lot more than I ever thought would be possible, which is amazing. I love him so much and just hearing is voice or even getting a message on facebook makes my day so much better! He is doing well and just trying to get through the next 5 months. I can't wait for him to get home! We are missing him so much. One of my biggest fears was that Kaydence wouldn't know who Miles was when he got home, but I really don't have that fear anymore. Miles made here a video before he left and Kaydence watches it almost every day and she will even kiss the t.v. screen and say dada. Her eyes just light up whenever I turn the video on; its wonderful to me to see her so happy to see her daddy!

I have also been feeling the effects of being the only parent! I have a new found respect for single mothers...because it is really hard and just tiring. I also have a new respect for Miles, not that I didn't respect him before, but now I realize just how much he did. I would always complain that he didn't do enough or how I wanted him to do more, but now I realize that he did so much! Sometimes you don't truly apperciate someone or something until its gone!

So today is my birthday and I am so excited to celebrate with my family and friends, but it is really hard to go through today without Miles! Now I did get to talk to him via facebook (thank goodness for modern technology) so that just made my day that much better!!! But now I am going to enjoy a nice dinner with my family and friends!